In the mid-eighties, I went on holiday to Corfu with my friend Adam. It was the first time I had flown and the first time I felt consciously out of control. Late one Friday the 13th as the plane sped down the runway towards take-off I thought to myself, "My body has never travelled at this … [Read more...] about I Am Not The Doer
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Trying To Finish
When I did the Belbin psychometric test to find out which team role I play most effectively, I remember less about my results and more of a jealous feeling related to people who were “Completer Finishers”. Everything tidy and settled is beyond me and consequently annoying. I think I was a … [Read more...] about Trying To Finish
The Metaphorical Garden
I find myself walking across sun-drenched fields alone with the dogs and overcome with feelings of freedom and elation I can't recall experiencing too often. Through the vineyards, with green in every direction, I wonder when exactly I awoke to the joy of being outside. My mother was a … [Read more...] about The Metaphorical Garden
How A Knife Reminded Me Of Self-Abandonment
In the kitchen drawer, there is a knife that I kept from my mother's house after she died in 2007. I don't know why I ended up with this particular piece but whenever I look at it I am reminded of the meals from childhood. Sitting around the cluttered kitchen table that doubled as a desk for … [Read more...] about How A Knife Reminded Me Of Self-Abandonment
Who Are You Doing It For?
There's an account on TikTok that belongs to a songwriter who often communicates disappointment and disillusionment at the paltry views and streams he receives. His songs are quite nice but that isn't really what interests me. I played some of his videos to my daughter who immediately felt … [Read more...] about Who Are You Doing It For?